Saturday, December 31, 2011

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

JC Penney

Saturday night went from being classy to crazy in only a few minutes.

At the checkout counter in JC Penney’s, I waited with anticipation.

Brittany and I had just completed a shopping spree.  For the first time in my life I didn’t look at the prices because it didn’t matter.  I didn’t care and Brittany didn’t care. We picked outfits out for each other.

For Brittany, I selected a red South Pole jacket covered with diamonds,  hot pink skinny jeans, and because Brittany likes accessories, an orange scarf, feather earrings, a feather necklace, and a feather hair band. I feel like the feathers really made the outfit.

Brittany wasn’t as kind when she selected my attire for the evening. She picked out a pair of blue patterned pajama pants, a salmon colored dress shirt, a penguin tie, a scarf, and a Russian styled winter hat. In my opinion the pants really complement the rest of my garments. 

After checking out, we went straight to the restroom to put our new garb on! Reemerging from the restroom, I looked like a mismatched bum and Brittany looked like an exotic bird. I don’t know about you, but I would rather be an exotic bird.

From there we made our way to the photo booth. A couple walks by us, the girl takes a second glance.  It feels like everyone is looking at us.

Did I mention that the tags are still on our clothes?

In the photo booth, it feels safe behind the curtains.  The machine doesn’t accept our ten dollar bill; we play paper-rock- scissors to determine who must break it. Brittany loses.

Brittany goes to five different stores, each one denies her. One clerk looked her up and down, in the worst possible way. Brittany concludes that it’s because she looks like a psychopath and returns to the photo booth defeated.

To break the ten dollar bill, we head to the food court to buy a soda.

The fear of being suspected as a shoplifter is over whelming. 

With the cash in hand, we get our picture taken. We change back into our original clothes and returned everything to JC Penney.

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Shades of Grey

I could still betray God, but not today. 

Things used to be much more black and white and honestly, I would prefer to subscribe to that kind of religion. My entire life, I have been taught that Jesus is the answer. I still believe it, but  as I get older, I see that life is complex; the solutions aren’t always simple or easy. I have at times doubted the authority of the Bible and I have even evaluated the idea that there might not be a God. 

Doubt has flood my mind at times but I am reassured that there is a loving Creator.   There is good and bad in life. Our sense of justice confirms this Great Controversy. We have the ability to love and to create, attributes of the one that created us. Life is simply too intricate for us to have evolved. Something never comes from nothing. We live in a created world and this necessitates a creator.  Every car has a manufacturer, every book has an author, every house has a builder, and every loaf of bread has a baker.   Everything that is created has a purpose. Cars are for transportation, books are for communication, homes are for shelter, and bread is for eating.   You are much more valuable and complex than any of these things. 

I believe in the Bible because it confirms what I can observe apart from religion. The Bible tells the story of a fallen World and shares a plan for its redemption -which is so beautiful to me. There is hope in its pages. When I read the Bible, it influences me, like no other book I have ever read.  I still have lots of questions. Some things might be cultural? Interruption can be confusing.  Some passages might have been intended for past or future ages of the Church? And just because the Bible makes a promise, does it make it good for all times and people?  I don’t know? I think that many of my religious activities might be practiced more out of tradition then out of Biblical principal and I am OK with that. Traditions are good but we need to be clear that they are traditions and not our salvation. 

Shades of grey overwhelm me. Simple faith requires that we accept truths as they become clear to us. If I want to know God, I should spend time with Him, He will impress upon my heart what I need to know for that time.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Retreat to Australia

This week I moved. I hate moving but sometimes it is necessary. My new housing arrangement is most certainly more affordable.  

I feel like my life is a game of Risk.  Right now, I am retreating to Australia. Usually Australia is a good place to build up your armies, while your enemies kill each other.

I need that right now, I still have that house in Syracuse. I don’t see an end in sight. I might have it for a while and I feel like I need to be prepared to weather whatever finical storm this house could bring.

“If the iron dice must roll, may God help us.”

German Chancellor, Theobald von Bethmann-Hollweg, 1914